Surviving Highschool

I KNOW I said I would keep up with this blog, but something utterly disturbing recently happened. I got grounded. (insert scary music right here.) Yes, for many reasons - according to my parents. But whatever, I get grounded alot so I'm used to it. I'll dedicate another post to that. Got my phone taken away on friday, got it back on saturdau for being good all day. Then got the computer back today! Yipee for me. LOL, I recently been obssessing with writing on my blog. I used to just use this as a wishlist, but that got kind of boring.

So today was my first day of JUNIOR YEAR. Yes, as in highschool. The place we can't live without, but hate at the same time. I have a big love/hate relationship with highschool. In one aspect, I HATE IT. Completely hate it. Hate getting up early, hate dealing with all the kids at school who think they are the shet when really; THEY'RE NOT. Sorry for the rant. I hate the homework, the classwork, being too cold in one class, too hot in the next. Again.. rambling.

And on another note, I LOVE IT. I get away from home for awhile, don't have to think about all the things I need to do, not have to think about watching this little girl (my stepdad's grandaughter) that lives with us, don't have to think about my brother or sister or even my dogs. I can socialize a bit, talk with some "friends." Truthfully though, I don't have friends. Like REAL REAL friends. I feel like people use me alot of the times. I feel like I am only that person people talk to if there is no one else to talk to. Lemme tell you, it's annoying as a mofo. I feel like such a used dirty towel sometimes.

Oh god, I sound like a loser. I'm really not though to tell you the truth. I have people to sit with at lunch, people to talk to in classes, but I don't have a REAL FRIEND. A person to tell everything to; your secrets, your day, your complaints - without them thinking your a weirdo. I know, I know. Your going to say "you always have your mom or your sister blah blah blah". But, its not easy to tell everything to them. Especially if your living in a house with a ALOT OF PEOPLE. News travels around fast, let me tell you that. Okay okay, off subject.

So, today I wore a bodycon skirt - black from H&M. And a tucked in grey v-neck, a brown string bracelet, some amberish colored stud earrings, and some strappy silver sandals. A pretty good back to school outfit, a bit overdressed though. Tomarrow I think I'm going for a floral flowy tunic, some skinny jeans, and probably flip flops. And I wore my hair curled today but it POOOFED from the humidity so I think I'm going to straighten it for tomarrow. My sister is going to cut my bangs today. Kinda like choppy indie bangs - you know the ones you see in tumblr pics? Yeah, those. They are pretty sweeett in my opionion.

Well, off to go eat some late dinner, do my hair, and then surf through youtube.

Until then my lovely readers,

Lauren xo.